If you have been following my blog for the last few days you will be well aware that I am missing my family very much on this #Weekwithout fundraiser ( to see details please check previous posts) but what I was noticing today was how many material luxuries I really had all this time and never noticed.
When I arrived home from work today I parked the car and walked around the house to the convenience store to cash one of those silly lottery tickets so I could collect the $12 which I am adding to the funds for #Weekwithout we have a charity target of $5,000 and every little bit helps, besides if I learned nothing from being convicted of old habits yesterday I certainly couldn't do what I really wanted and that was buy more scratch tickets lol, just being honest people, just being honest. The walk was wonderful I realized that I had been going from my 10x10 room driving in my car to the office getting back in my car and back into my 10x10 room with little time outside so this walk was just amazing! God forgive for forgetting about the luxuries of being able to walk to the store, wearing warm winter boots and coat and having this house to come home to , its actually pretty big, much bigger than I thought, much bigger than the house I used to complain about.
When I walked into the door I had to go to the washroom in a hurry and I could because we have a bathroom on the main floor right near the front door. God forgive me for forgetting about the luxury of owning 3 washrooms, those washrooms that I complain about cleaning. Many people do not own even one.
As I climbed the stairs to go to my room I looked over the rail and down to the living area and saw my furniture from up there, its beautiful, spacious and looks so comfortable. God forgive me for getting frustrated when people would come over when we didn't have enough seats for everyone to sit in or that I thought the room was too small. any people do not have even half that space or the people to fill it.
My husband was taking our youngest daughter out for dinner so I took the opportunity to use my second and last shower time for the week while they were gone. I stood in the shower and loved the feeling of the hot water it was a great feeling after being in my cold room for the last few days. The smell of the soap was glorious and I stood in that shower longer than I ever had before. God thank you for the luxury of hot water, clean shower and soap, I didn't even notice the old tiles on the wall and that my towels are the ones from our wedding almost 19 years ago that I used to make such a big deal about. Forgive me for forgetting that water is life and many don't have this luxury.
The door to our bedroom was open and I peeked inside, it looked so spacious and luxurious just like the rooms I was glancing over on the internet thinking about time away with Tom after this week. As I looked on the internet earlier and complained about how expensive the rooms are in hotels I guess I forgot that I had a luxurious suite right down the hall that we could go to for free. I saw it with fresh eyes tonight, God forgive me , its beautiful. Many people would dream about that room and having someone to share the bed with.
Now I am in my 10x10 room again and it seems s0 small. I have towel drying off my bed clothing hanging on the other side, my food and dishes on one side of the floor and work stuff on the other and a few piles of clothes, I guess I need to go to the laundry mat soon. God forgive me for not being grateful for this small space, a luxury for many who would love to have it.
God forgive me for having all these luxuries and more right in front of me and not realizing they were everything I used to wish I had before I knew you, the things I dreamed about when I looked through the skylight of our old apartment with no windows....you gave me everything I asked for yet I still didn't appreciate it......all these luxuries right in front of me.
Many people dream about the very things you and I take for granted everyday. They live in spaces that are not even equipped to accommodate half of what we have and yet we want more. Please take a good look around you tonight and ask God to forgive you for not seeing the luxuries in front of you. Then I ask that you go to www.capcanada.org/donate to make a donation to #Weekwithout yo help raise awareness and funds to support making real changes in the lives of people who go without everyday. Thank-you
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